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My Dream....

I had a dream last night that has lingered in my mind all day. It was disturbing and my response in the dream is what disturbed me the most. Before I go on though, I must lay somewhat of a foundation for understanding where this dream came from and why.

I have been noticing that Pastor James has been speaking and touching on end times a lot recently (I don't know for about the past 6 + mos or so I've noticed). And each time it has been brought up, my interest has been peaked. It has been on my mind - too much maybe. But I guess there is nothing wrong with being interested in somthing that pertains to the future and especially God's word.

("Therefore keep watch, because you do not know on what day your Lord will come. But understand this: If the owner of the house had known at what time of night the thief was coming, he would have kept watch and would not have let his house be broken into. So you also must be ready, because the Son of Man will come at an hour when you do not expect him. Matt 24:42-44)

So recently (over the past few months or so) I have began digging into end times. Have you been noticing what is going on in our world?? I mean the earth is revolting from our even inceasing and disgusting sin. Our economy is definately a one world economy. The collapse of our nation is imminent (this is my opinion and based on research). The time is near....near....near....near - I would argue seconds are on the clock. Like I have said I have done tons and hours and hours of research on this subject and I have pretty strong convictions regarding differing points of view.

One in particular is the rapture. Everyone has heard of the rapture and what it is. And shockingly, I would say the majority of the population believes that this will occur before the tribulation. I have scoured my bible and reputable internet sites trying to find supporting scripure. Friends, I have news that really shook my foundation of what I believed (and this was not what had previously I learned on my own). No, I am not a bible scholar, but God told us He gave us His spirit that we might be able to understand His word. Simply put, I just don't see how the rapture can occur before the tribulation. Someday - God willing - I will present my case before you as to why, but you too can search the scriptures to discern what is true. While, I am convinced that the rature will not occur before the tribulation, I am still not completely sure as too when it will occur - meaning mid or post tribulation. God has told us the hour and day we will not know - how can we?? But He has certainly given us enough "clues" about when to be ready.

Anyway, so this reality (if nothing short of a possibility) has really made it difficult to swallow. I just was never prepared for that. Last night, I had a really wild dream.... the antichrist will make us professing Christians suffer. He is going to make life so difficult....

In my dream, and it is a little fuzzy at this point, I realized who the beast was and once I did and was face to face with him, he knew that I knew who he was. He also knew that I was a Christian. I was with Morgan, and so (fuzzy area) I began to tell her everything I knew to prepare her (b/c that's what mom's do - we prep, prep and prep some more our kids). But in the midst of that I was taken away. I was terrified, b/c I knew this was the end of my life. Facing your own mortality is never a moment of reality you want to come too. And if it's gotta happen, well, don't you want it over quick?? But Christ suffered before His crucifixion and during. He layed down His life for us, that we may have eternal life thru Him. To go the "easy way out" just seems cowardly - especially in light of what He did for us. At some point I realized I had been intentionally poisoned by some food I had been eating. I layed there half in this world, half out. And he came over to me and began to tell me how he was going to make me pay for following Christ. All I wanted was to have some more of that poison, so I could slip out without suffering to much. How I desired it, how I longed for it in my dream, because I didn't want to suffer. Then I heard the baby crying.....you know, Addison - reality, not the dream.

I woke up and prayed immediately. I asked Jesus to forgive me. I was really really upset. I was upset that knowing today, if my life was to be taken because of my love for Jesus, I would give it up for Him in a heart beat. I was always confident that I would suffer for him too. But this dream revealed something different to me. I was so sad, so upset, so mad that I had what seemed "failed my Savior." That feeling was very real. And I wonder today, where my heart really, truly is. I don't want to go out, without leaving a big message to those around me that - Jesus is King!! He is worth dying for!! I know this all seems so radical, but it very possibly could be a reality some day.

"I tell you the truth, this generation will certainly not pass away until all these things have happened." Matthew 24:34

What would you do?

Addie and Her Smoothie

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