Frustrated Steps

Wow, the main theme of my day has been frustrated steps. You know the days, when you attempt to move forward, but fall back at each attempt? This has been my day. As I was cleaning the patio area and removing the innumeral (is that a word?) amount of spider webs off everything - like thanks Orkin man (seriously) - I decided to do a bit of rearranging. This is afterall, my most desired past time. I don't something just is very theraputic about a new arrangement.....that is for another post though. So I was moving Morgan & Addy's playhouse to the other end of the patio and getting it situated when the back side of the darn thing just came completely off!!! Holy, moly! I ran in the house and grab the drill and in the process of trying to see where it came loose, I discovered that the only thing holding it together was one stinkin' screw! How did that happen??? Then a little later on, I made leftovers for lunch and dumped the whole thing on the floor. Of course I decided to actually cook something and I couldn't seem to get the directions right and poured water into the pan on the cooked ground beef instead of setting it aside - just like the lable read.... Another thing I did was finally find a place for my welcome expression that I received for free from my last order and ended up tearing one of the letters....lucky the doctor was in and all is well...looks good actually! Later I decided I needed to just get out of the house and return somethings to target and go to Michael's for some star stamps for our art projects this week at camp. While I was in the clearance section at Michael's I decided that I would get one of these really cool martha stewart craft paper project with my 40% off coupon. I got to the check out and the it only took $.80 off??? I guess the coupon I wanted to use (from the Knack) was only good on non-sale items - argh.... I would have brought my other one then.... Frustrated!!!! And it was just lots of little annoying things like that all day. So what is going on God!?!? Are you trying to get my attention about something and I am just missing it? I hope tomorrow is better!

Your Not Alone, Meredith Andrews

I don't know about you, but this song just speaks to me and where I have come from.....looking back on it all, HE has been there all along....I just didn't know it at the time.His word and promises are a constant comfort to me. And while I am still realitivly young in my second/final spiritual conversion, I feel life has more purpose, meaning and direction only when I am constantly "bent" for Him. There is no other place I'd rather be than at the foot of His throne knees bent and eyes focused on Him. Nothing in this world will ever take me away from my savior - all that it has to offer and as it glitters is just not gold, but smoke and mirrors, lies, hurt and pain. I have never had more peace and joy in my life like I do today, but it is only because He has reached into the pit of my life and redeemed my soul. For He has made me a new creation, just as His word promised to do; 2 Corinthians 5:17. What is even better yet is as I heartfeltly strive to honor and please Him, I FAIL from time to time - And He as gracious and loving as he is continues to nurture and gently correct me as any parent would. He loves me no matter what and at times my heart is grieved that I feel like I can't do more......after all He laid down His life, to purchase my soul back. What higher love is this? Thank you sweet Lord Jesus - the One whom my soul loves....

You're Not Alone

I searched for love
When the night came and it closed in
I was alone but you found me where I was hiding
and now I'll never ever be the same
It was the sweetest voice that called my name
saying

You're not alone
For I am here
let me wipe away your every fear
My love I've never left your side
I have seen you through the darkest night
and I'm the one who's loved you all your life
All of your life

You cry yourself to sleep
cause the hurt is real
and the pain cuts deep
All hope seems lost
With heartache your closest friend
and everyone else long gone

You've had to face the music on your own
but there is a sweeter song
that calls you home saying

You're not alone
For I am here
let me wipe away your every tear
My love I've never left your side
I have seen you through the darkest nights
And I'm the one who's love you all your life
All your life

Faithful and true... Forever
For my love will carry you....

You're not alone
for I... I am here
let me wipe away your every fear... Oh yeah
My love I've never left your side
I have seen you through your darkest nights
Your darkest nights
And I'm the one who's loved you all your life
All of your life